For The Second Time.

Yes! I've decided to blog the second time today.

(Actually I did but stupid Blogspot.)

BECAUSE!

Just because I can't blog tomorrow

and the next day too.

Because......

I'll be in SINGAPORE!

MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

I know, like almost everyone been to Singapore and stuff.

But its not where I'm heading (yeah it is but also)

Its who I'm going with.

I'm going with Ma FAMALIA!

Of course.

OWH! OWH! OWH!

We're going to Universal Studious Singapore too!

WOOHOO!

'FUN'

(I get excited over things easily.) :P

But I'mma be hella tired when I get back.

When WE all come back.

COME ON LA! Its like only for one night.

All the places to go and soo little time!

L wants to shop. So is my cuzs.

I'm just going to follow them around.

Like normal. :)

But what the heck!

Just gonna enjoy all the time we'll have there!

And maybe we'll be going to visit some of my cousins there.

LOL!

YES! I have familia in Singapore!

Haven't seen them in a while though.

Just this morning one of them FB Messaged me.

Saying that I've turned to be real pretty since I was younger.

Hehehehe.

She said I was messy before.

I guess I was. :)

Its the way you do

The things you do

That make me fall in love with you.

Love.

Breaking Free.

Yesh, finally tomorrow!

I can't wait to go but I know that place will remind me about someone.

I don't know how I'm going to go through tomorrow

but probably I would because I have MOST of the people I adore and love with me.

How I wish I was different.

Maybe a bit lighter?

Prettier?

My skin tone is lighter?

Taller?

Sigh. I don't know. Because of this one person.

I do know that being me is enough.

But is being enough, enough?

Make me feel like being me isn't good enough.

But I'm greatful of what I am.

What I have.

Who I love.

Who that loves me.

Why sometimes I do have self-confident is because I had to learn it the hard way to love myself.

Pathetic, I know.

Buck my insecurities!

BUT, TOMORROW!
Would be a good day! Hopefully. :D

Yes, It will.

Owh, I admit I'm naive but it doesn't really mean I don't know.

I just realise I have two pairs of cat twins! LOL.

I know, It made me miss H & L and The Double F's.

(College-mates)

And THAT made me miss COLLEGE!

WITH THAT it made miss all the friends in college!

I MISS M, H, L, T, The Indian, Indian Billy Goat, Bakul and BUCKET!

Buck I miss college. Can't wait to see them again.

Love.

Feelings That Does Not Match.

I wonder how many people actually follow my blog. Seriously.

How bout inbox me on my FB? But I don't think anyone actually read my blog.

Except for L. Maybe. I don't know.

I mean come on. Who wants to read RANDOM, stupid stuff about me.

=)

But I don't care. I'm going to write on it anyways. Muahahaha.

Buck my FB jammed. Buck you FB.

Different kind of writing todayyy.

Wanted to try new stuff.

I actually like this kind of writing...

Starting from the middle.

Seriously, Stupid FB! I'm freaking chatting with L.

Why do you need to jammed yourself! Like seriously! Having serious convo here?!

Owh, in serious need of exercise. LOL.

MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Seriously, I feel like I need to do something random. Like Serious random!

OWH! I LOVE TOKIO HOTEL! WOOOHOOO!

In LOVE with this song. Figure it out yourself what song is it cause I'm gonna change it abit. :P

Btw, this is for someone who one day will know. But not anytime soon.

You know its not my fault, but you're a locked door

And inside you're a mess by someone before
And you wish that you, you could find a key
To unlock all the things that I want us to be
Let you open up and start again,
But there’s a safe around your heart
You don’t know how to let me in,
And that’s what keeps us apart
And that’s why you need time.
You said You need me,
You need me to understand, me, me, me,
You need me to understand, me, me, me,

Call up the locksmith,
Tell him we need him quick
We’ve got a million keys,?
None of them seem to fit
While I'm on the phone,
Call up the clocksmith,
Cuz you could use some time,
Even the slightest bit

Let you open up and start again,
And break this safe around your heart
You don’t know how to let me in,

That’s what keeps us apart
And that’s why I need time
You said you need me,

You need me to understand, me, me, me,
You need me to understand, me, me, me,

You're thinking now’s the time,
Maybe its time to go, if You gave me your heart, I'll be gentle,
You're tired of laying low, lets give the world a show
And when I know, I know,
And when I know, I know, I know
And when I know, I know, I know, I know,
And that’s why you need time

You said you need me,
You need me to understand,me,me,me, (x2)
You need me to understand (x4)
I need you (x3)
I need you, you, you

Love.

To My Future Boyfriend. Hahahaah.

I hope you will not Steal, Lie and Cheat.

BUT,

If you have to Steal,

Steal my sorrows away,

But if you have to Lie,

Lie with me for the rest of my life,

And if you have to Cheat,

Cheat death because I can't spend even one day without you.

Cheesy much? LOL. I watched Leap Year. Well, parts of it. Since my lil sis keep on skipping scenes because its her second time watching.

Went out earlier today. With Lil H and L.

K, A,D and loser went out first because D drove.

They went kareoke-ing.

Me, L and Lil H just walking and window shopping through the malls.

And Owh! I almost forget that I BOUGHT NEW SHOES! LOL! From Everlast. Quite cheap. L was saying that I should buy converse but I always wanted to buy Everlast shoes. Wanted to try them out. Its actually quite painful for the first few hours waering them. Their not like my Adidas shoes that was soo freaking comfy whenever you put them on. But their way cuter then my last Adidas ones.

Anywho, we went to Jonker walk after that.

Finding some stuff to buy for some people. =P

It wasn't fun but it was good. Damn it was hot. People walking like their blind. Like seriously, If you want to survive Jonker Walk, Walk like you're blind. Just walk straight and bump into people! =D Its fun.... Yeah... No. Its not fun.

OWH, btw, I'm really a goody-goody girl. I know, RANDOM!

Love.

Red And Green.

It has been a hell of a day. If I was a christian, I would say this is a perfect Christmas. Don't worry my dearest family. I never wished nor I've image to be one. No offence to Christians of course. All the things I think I need is here, IN Melaka. This next few days will be filled with lots of quality time with la familia. The set is complete. So, lots more fun!

Singapore in 3 days! Can't wait for that! Spending and enjoying as much as I can before going back to Subang! Sigh.

I love the people that I know in Subang.

I mean, I seriously adore and love them!

But Subang means A-level. And that means study. And study means aiming for A's. A's means hardwork. Hardwork means discipline.

And I dislike being discipline. But I know I have to. :D

For the better future. I know I'll be missing alot of things but all the things I'm going to go through if I do it properly, Is amazing. I know we should enjoy life. I am and I'll always be but there's always limits for everything.

And

So, Who are YOU waiting for?

THE GIRL OF YOUR DREAMS?

Love.

Christmas Morning.

Merry Christmas!!

Santa, can I ask for a person? Is that possible? LOL. To the people I love, have a good holidays and try to enjoy life as it is because you'll never know if you getting another chance to go through this next year. I wanted alot of things. I wish for alot of things. I don't get them. I'll still live. Its never about getting. Its all about giving. How much would you give? And how long can you stand with only giving and not getting? All you have to do is to be patient and be grateful of what you have.

Love.

Reminder.

When I'm older and if my little boy asks me who my first love was. I don't want to have to pull out The Old Photo Album. I want to be able to point across the room and say : "He's sitting right over there."

Holiday Without Love.

Yes, a one month holiday has officially is in my Unwanted list. Hehehe. This holiday has made me realise again of how much I LOVE the people I hang around with in Subang. Actually the people I generally with. I miss them. Why do they have to live soo far away? But I do appreciate the time I spend with my FAMILIA! I seriously love and adore them! I'm actually still in the progress of understanding why I'm such a weird kid. HAHAHAHAHA! Its been a long time since I hang around with my family and I guess thats the whole point I'm here in Melaka and this one month holiday eh?

I'm loving the time and space I have now but if I can't share it with the people I want to share it with then I don't want all this time and space and thank god I do have people to share it with today.

And again, missing you.

Love.

Jolly, Its been a good seven days of holiday and I'm dying. Seriously, I'm growing fatter. Hahahaha. I blame my mom! Tomorrow I'm going to start a new diet plan. I know. It would only happen if I focus! So A, FOCUS! F.O.C.U.S! For everything you want in the future! FOCUS!

And

If you like me,

Tell me,

If you miss me,

Show it,

If you love me,

Prove it.

Song of the day- Monte by Zee Avi

Love.

Wow, Its only been about five days since holiday started and I'm already wanting to go back to Subang Jaya for college. Seriously, it feel like forever for this holiday to end and I know that I'll miss this holidays when it end. I miss all the people I used to see almost everyday. Buck! I miss them! Its okay. Next year will be a good year! Start anew and stuff. LOL.

Btw,

I going to quote from a song now. :P

Once again you're home alone,

Tears running from your eyes,

And I'm on the outside,

Knowing that you're all I want,

But I can't do anything,

I'm so helpless baby,

Everyday same old things,

So used to feeling pain,

Never had real love before,

And it ain't his fault,

He know better but

He can't help it,

Wanna tell him,

but would that be selfish,

How do you heal

A heart that can't feel, Its broken,

Her love is all he know, all he knows, all he knows,

His love is all I knows, all I knows, all I knows.

Love.

You know all my secrets,

You see through everything I've done,

You can't do anything to make me stop loving and trust you,

I know thats stupid but I rather be stupid with you.

I rather bleed my heart out then lose you.

I know I'm probably one of the most naive people but I rather be naive then lose someone I know I'm going to meet only once in my life.

Yes, as much as the reason to live for.

You're one of the source of mine.

The reasons I wake up in the mornings.

You showed me alot of things I didn't know.

Good or bad, I learned from each and everyone.

So, let your guard down and tell me.

I know there's something your not telling me.

Something that have been disturbing you.

I truly want to know.

And no matter what it is I will never judge you.

I promise.

Love you.

Buck My Life.

Don't want to feel the way I feel about you.

Everything about you make my whole body shiver,

It's you I want in my world , it's you that I adore.

Love.

See What I've Done.

You can't be too careful anymore

When all that is waiting for you,

Won't come any closer,

You've got to reach out a little more,

More, More, More, MORE.

Love.

Loving You.

More and more you sinking into me. Sorry because I'm not brave enough. :P

See this heart won't settle down

Like a child running scared from a clown
I'm terrified of what you do
My stomach screams just when I look at you
Run far away so I can breath
Even though your far from suffocating me
I can't set my hopes to high
Cause every hello ends with a goodbye.

Catch Me by Demi Lovato.

Love.

How I Feel About You.

Its sad to know that your there but I can't reach you. You never fail to make my day. And to my lucky Best Bud, sometimes we can't control life. Live your life to the fullest. Don't regret anything because time does not wait and never we'll be able to control it. Don't give up so easily because life is still going and we are better off here. This is just something that you'll have to go through. Its tough but its probably worth every second.

To L, Thank you for evrything. Each day that we've spend is amazing. Such an amazing friend, best friend and sister.

Song Of The day- Catch me by Demi Lovato.

Love.

Hello Luck

I just need luck. I do. I know I'm not careful enough. With anything. How sad of me.

But I'm happy. I'm content with the life I have now.

I'm a simple person. And I want to keep it that way. I know almost everything in this world is complicated but I can't help myself. I'll make it simple! LOL.

AND

Btw, AUDI is the new shit.Right L? ;P

This Is What It Takes.

Next week is Freaking Sem 1 Exam!

Imma die. Seriously, I'm going to die. LOL. Nah, I have the help from L, M and H. Been studying in Lakeside alot these days. Well, more then that la. :D. Okay, this blog is officially too public. I can't write shit anymore. I thought it would be a blog that just my close friends read. If they know la. But nah, I'm not that type. Maybe? He is just not normal. And no, I don't like him that much. Loving the time I spend with my girlfriends. I now know why they're my peeps. LOL. Missing the times spent with S. Miss my indian. And tomorrow is Thinking Skills exam. Greeaaatttt. Studying hard. Muahahahahahahahaha!

Btw, Me, L And H is freaking sick!!!! Next up, M!

How Much More

I Guess Ignorance Is Bliss.