Thursday, November 10

The Moment That Lasted Forever.



There he was.
In that favorite clothes.
There he went.
To see what he could get.
There was I.
Hoping he would come back.


Once I wished it all went back,
To what it was,
But I changed my mind,
To let it rust,
Because that wasn't just what it was,
It was more than that,
It was more than us,

Life but a moving city,
It change and never stop changing,
Life is that and more,
How can we call it life if it wasn't so,
To way with the wind,
Is something ironic,
You said you wasn't so,
But where were you when I took the toll,

Close your eyes and pray to god,
That I wouldn't be the one who's got,
The power to see through you,
And much as you wouldn't want to,
I hold everything that you've known,
And set it on fire as it was my own,
To kill the devil within,
And shine the light to that wicked skin,
For long I am to what you are,
As long I am what I am,
Take it or leave it as much as you like,
Because that is always what's right,

They will be like your mirror,
That shows what you really are,
And there you were so lonely and afraid,
To watch yourself be betrayed,
But you know better to what is right,
And see the outcome, clear and bright,
looking into my eyes and then you see,
That everything was according to me,

And then you say "what a wicked soul?!"
What I've done wasn't that at all,
You looked at me at such astray,
And hoped I'm killed,
With hope you prayed,
As long as I am what I am,
I will protect you from yourself,
Because the strongest enemy is not at the outside,
But its beneath those skin that is still tight,

We may not learn what is right
But we must know when it tight,
To see beneath our fingers, We're told,
And to hold that was always left untold.


-A



October.

Hello!
Its November now!
I've been busy with assignments and projects and tests!
And much much more!

But I love where I am today..
I've grown a lot since high school!
I'm much more positive than before!
And I forgive quickly too.
And I don't let people mess around with me
anymore..
I love to love.
Because love is one of the most powerful thing a person can have.
The ability to give love is magical.
 And to always have more is amazing!
I know that this world is messed up!
But it won't ever stop me from having faith and hope,
on people.
I know that some of us have problems
about love, about people we love...
Just know that everyone will hurt us
BUT
We must find the people who we would suffer for.
We hurt people and people hurt us.
That's life.
You can't change it much.
And finding people who have the same principles as us 
is hard.
Just love people
Because no matter who you are,
You always wanted to be loved.



Love IS Important.







Because one day when you might wake up from your sleep, 
And realize you lost the moon while counting the stars.





Wednesday, November 2

:)








Canyoubelikeaboomerang? Iwishedyoudo.





Wants.

Hey dear readers!
I just want to write something that we feel everyday.
About our wants.
don't fool yourself by saying that there is nothing you want.
 In the world that we live in right now.
We always demand more...
And the worse part is 
We demand as much as we can.
Its hard to find people that are happy being poor,
Happy without a luxury...
I've seen people or families that has financial issues,
Waste their money buying luxurious things.
I know that mine teaches me to grab as much opportunities as I can..
They've never thought me to waste.
I'm not saying that I'm going to stop you or being scrubby to any of you
(siapa makan cili, dia terasa pedasnya)
I'm just saying that if you do want to
Save up first.
Cause you don't know what's going to happen tomorrow.
Seriously, it doesn't hurt much.
I've tried saving 
And it was wonderful!
I mean like in the same time I am saving,
I got the things I want!
For free!
People give this stuff to me..
Or I spend a little la..
I still buy stuff but only a little.
Not soo much..

Some of the stuff I got...
(This is my blog, I can put anything I want. If you hate it, you can always close the tab)


Yes, PANCAKES! I wanted to make pancakes and today, Ibu brought it back for meeeeee!! iHappy.


Yeah, I was waiting to get a perfume and yes, mom always read my mind... :) 
At first I didn't like it that much but I got used to it. (Maybe) :P


Hahahaha! This is what I got for this past WEEK!
I'm sooo blessed!
I was also saving up for a mascara but  MY GREAT BESTIE GAVE IT TO ME!!
I LOVE YOU, L!!
And I got some revlon lipstick myself.
(which was buy 1 free1!)
And I got lip glosses from laura mercier and two lipstick from Artistry.
From my AWESOME SISTER *cousin* 
I LOVE YOU ALLL!

Believe in what you want and it will find a way to you. 
Or through you family members
And finally give it to you. 
:P




Love Cause That's All We Have.




BLESSED



Tuesday, November 1

Third Try.

Hello bloggers and non bloggers.
Who read my blog.
:) 
Thank you soo much for doing so..
I actually wrote like three or is it two blogs before this one..
Gonna finish it and post it soon enough.
So, last week was a really good week.
I loved it!
This week is like any other college week.
I think..

As most of you muslims out there must know 
about the celebration that we're going to have this sunday..
:) 
Meat.
Lol...
So, we have like a day off..
And most of the gadek clan will be home in Melaka for it!
YAYYAH!
And we're going to have our anual barbeque!!
YAY! 
But hopefully this year we'll have veges!!!
I LOVE VEGES!
I want to be a vegetarian
But I kindda like meat too..
LOL..
THAT'S IT!
BYE BLOG.




There's going to be one day that when you look back 
What you've gone through in life,
You'll say " WHAT WAS I THINKING?!",
And at that point, I know you'll remember me.





Love With No Boundaries,
Live Without Regrets.





Ps: Loving A Beautiful Mess by Jason Mraz.
Listen to it.
I find it very romantic.

Sunday, October 23

Without The Rain, There Wouldn't Be Rainbows.

Today such an inspirational day...

THE NEW ZEALAND ALL BLACKS
WIN THE RWC!!!!!

Finally after 24 years in the waiting to be champion,
They became THE CHAPS!
This shows that as long as you work hard for your dreams
You WILL achieve them.
:)
And there's alot of others proof that support that.
I love the all blacks!
Even though I'm Malaysian.
I love to see how hard they work for success.
I love to see people work hard for it 
Because it also MAKES me want to
WORK HARD as well.
It inspires me too.
To do the things I love with
Hard work.

And not more than an hour ago.
From Sepang MotorGP
Its reported that Marco Simoncelli
24years old racer, 
Died after a crash at the 2nd lap of the race.
Rest In Peace, Marco Simoncelli.
This just shows that even though there's risk of dying.
If you love what you do, you wouldn't mind to die doing what you love most.

Those racers out there,
Those racers in Sepang.
THEY ARE PASSIONATE ABOUT WHAT THEY DO.
They understand the risk of doing what they do best.
And they would take that risk to do what they love.
I respect them for that.

Today is such an inspiring day.

I learnt that you shouldn't give in to what you love
And I know that there will be risks everywhere.
But to do what you love and passionate most,
Will make your life more meaningful and
Even though, reality speaking, its kind of stupid
But answer me this question,

Which will you choose?

Live the rest of your life regretting not doing it.

Or

Live your life with with the fulfillment that you have done what you love most.


(I mean, healthy dreams okay. Not killing someone or doing cocaine or anything that falls in those category)  


Love Because Sometimes There Would Be No Tomorrow. 
:)


First Time Ever. :) More To Come.

Hello Freaky People..
Who kindda read my blog...
I had decided to deactivate my Facebook account but change my mind later.
So, earlier today I went out with my bestie 
And bought some things..
I haven't shop in while..
And this is not a haul la..
Just some things I wanted to buy.



The first two lipstick are from Revlon.
The Revlon Super Lustrous Lipstick
Which is in colour Love That Red And Sandalwood Beige.
I love the formulation of these lipstick and the colour last a long time..




This is the L'oreal Ultra-Volume Collagene Mascara..
I haven't tried this one yet and I JUST got it today 
But I'll do a full review of it later!




Maybelline Baby Lips!!
I was looking forward to this 
BUT was disappointed with this purchase!!
I thought it was tinted but it was NOT!
I wished the stuff that comes to Malaysia
Didn't change soo drastically!


All and all,
It was a good day spent..
I got to go around and buy stuff that  wanted and more..
:P




Love.

Monday, October 17

The Moment The World Shuts.

There's just an illusion,
Something so alien, 
About being bold,
Knowing what to hold,

Life would give you what you own,
With the counting of time that you hold,
To become like cards that fold,
In the game of poker when the truth untold,

We can't spend our life waiting to live,
And they say I'm worthless but I'm not listening,
Why should I?
Do they know me till the point that they can tell me
What I worth.
Worthiness doesn't come from impression,
It come from knowing expressions.


Love, Baby, Love.



Sunday, October 16









You didn’t want her when all she ever wanted was you. 










I've Only Noticed It Today.

Oh No.


And I know you want the same love,
That I've fought so long,
The one we thought was wrong,
And you know I, Oh I, Need your love,
'Cause we can't fool ourselves,
Into someone else's heart


:"(

Wednesday, September 21

Dying On The Outside

Is there a place of peace,
Where all the animal preach,
Saying the world would set the lease,
Telling false tales with their speech,

How much love does it take,
To make people hesitate,
To run and hide with all they have,
To turned a one into a halve?

Where will you be my love,
Leaving me with so much belove,
Stay with me for a bit,
Take out the candles and let it stay lit,

I had you in my arms, my heart, my hair, my waist,
You took away your loving and had me a waste,
Why Oh Dear Darling why?
You take my mouth and all my pride,

I guess I'm old enough,
To make these love poems and call it a bluff,
So long as you can see,
The light thats written all for me,

Buy me tomorrow and stay with me today,
Send me love letters and don't go astray,
Give me your time and money,
Because with that I'll be your one and only.

The White Peasant

Hey baby,
When will we meet again.
Hey love,
Can't we meet up tomorrow?
Because life seems to be envy,
Envy of what we have,

Can't we forget the world and slip away?
To the unknown of adventure,
The seas of bright future,
The undying love of internal life,

Where will you be my love,
With the echo of you voice,
With the distance reaching,
For the love that we have,

For the future are well unknown,
To set us free and show us the way,
To the real life of the man,
For known now that its just a life of rules,

By the man with the crown,
That controls the servants,
With the help of a dark wizard.

Sunday, September 18

On A Sunday Morning

So, how are the people in the blogging world today?
Its been a while dear blog.
Yes, I've missed you much.
I thought I'd lost a place that I can write my thoughts and 
just random this I wanna write.


Owh, I kindda got a new phone.
So, I downloaded a bunch of apps.
You know,
Twitter,
Facebook,
Tumblr,
Ymail,
Angry Birds,
The normal.
But I also add an app thats called,
WHICH IS AN AWESOME APP!
I know that Instagram is somethingl like it.
It allows us to choose any effects that we want
But of course there's a limit on how much varieties of effects
Here is some of the pictures I took with it.


















Its sooo cuttteee! 
I can make awesome pictures now!

Video of the day
Ps: If you wanna watch this, Please wear sunnys or any kind of eyes protection.

Song of the day
The Best Day by Taylor Swift



Love, Darlings.


Monday, April 18



There's a point in life when you get tired of chasing everyone and trying to fix everything, but it's not giving up.
Its realizing that you don't need certain people and their crap.






:P

Thursday, April 14

How I Need You?

I got inspired today.
To write a blog post
About the thing 
I know now
I'm gonna okay at.
I'm not bragging.
Its just something I've experienced
The HARD way.

Its about
FRIENDS.
What is friends?
People that come into our life?
OR
The people we choose to share our life with?
 Both is right.
Because depends on the person.
You know,
Depends on how they roll.
:P

But know this.
Friends
Are the people that will stay loyal.
Friends,
Are the people that always
Come first,
Leave the latest.
Friends,
Are the people
That will always make your day.
Friends,
That would care for you.
Friends,
Would never want to hurt you.
Friends,
That would still love you,
No matter how screwed up you are.
Friends,
That would help you on your exam,
Even if they were having theirs.
Friends,
That would share almost anything with you.
And 
Believe me,
Those are just starters.
:)

I'm guessing I've been through
Shit all of these months.
I get to know a lot of things too.
But those things
Doesn't excite me.
Not anymore.
I'm not the girl you used to know.
I've changed and
You know what?
I'm happy with this change.
To the people that matters
I've changed to be a better person.
And they aren't
Childish, ignorant, egoistic people.
I know in life
They would be the ones
Who set the rules.
*Praying for you always*
And are the best at their fields.

And I do know that
No matter what happens.
I could always count on them
As much as how they could count on me.
And you have to be honest,
*Sometimes, not to them*
With your intention
Towards them.
And some people may say
That different sex
Could never be good friends
But there are special cases,
I guess.
OKAY!
I GUESS THAT ENOUGH.
 :P

Sooooo, 
You know I just 
Got to know a little bit of
This artist
JANELLE MONAE.
I'm in love with her music right now!

The first song I heard from her.
I thought it was pretty good.
But a bit weird.
And still,
I LOVE IT.

Another song from her.
Hahahahahaha.
I'm not thinking anything.

Third song I heard from her
And by far my favorite.
You'l know what I mean when 
You listen closely.
:)

A very fun song from her!
Quite zombie-ish.
Reminds me of Micheal Jackson's
Thiller song!

Well,
Yes I'm into music.
Who doesn't?
And some people doesn't
Like my taste in music
And I do ask them for knowledge
About their choice of music.

Sometimes you just have to accept it all
To understand it all.

And this song,


Is one of the most romantic song everr...
Its alright and
Yeah, its pretty romantic.
:P
Hopefully someday
Someone would like to sing it to me?
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
Such an impossible dream.


Love.


Monday, April 11

Trials.

Heloooo blog.
I know its been a long time since I post anything up.
I'm busy with my exams and all.
Yeah,
And I'm also busy with my
Life.
Yes, life
Something so important 
But we tend to forget it.
Why?
Because we're ungrateful of
LIFE.
Because we know that we always have it.
Well, only if we're still breathing.
Yes, we will
But we would also miss it.
Yes, we can miss life.
Because of time.
Time,
Does not wait for anyone.
Not even cousin Past.
:)
Be forever thankful for Life.
It gives us the chance to know how it feels 
like to be human.
To fall in love,
Fall out of love,
To start to believe,
To start have faith,
To feel love,
To feel hate,
Heart broken,
And
To learn how to love,
And 
To live the way that we live.
Thats what Life
Gives you,
And it will never stop giving,
Only if you don't give up.
Thats how Life rolls.

SO,
Yes, MY TRIALS ARE OVER!
Yeah,
BUT
This just shows how fast time flows.
AS is near,
Just around the corner.
I hope I can prepare
To get the best that I can.
I never do things alone.
Wait,
NO, 
I never achieve something alone.
I always had and have help,
From friends that truly matters.
And
The way to repay them is 
To do the best that I can.
And I hope I never fail them.
*I hope I never fail me*
Because they mean a lot to me.
And some,
more then that.
;)

Owh,
One more thing,
The reason I don't post anything online as much is because
I'M ON TUMBLR!
Seriously,
Tumblr is addictive!
I LOVE IT!
Because I found tumblr,
I blog a little less.
SORRY!


I live for the moment and nothing else,
I live for myself and for the people that I truly love.
And everything happens for a good damn reason.




Love.

Monday, March 21




Break the rules. 
Forgive quickly.
 Kiss slowly. 
Love deeply. 
Laugh uncontrollably. 
And never,
 Regret anything that made you 
smile.




Monday, March 14





I hate it when I'm eating
The Koko Crunch Duo.
I eat the cream ones first,
So I can eat the chocolate ones
Later.

Live your life,
YOUR WAY.



Love.


Thats Just Us.

I love my people.
I know my family will always be there for me.
I know that the people I let personally into my life,
Will stay in my life.
I just know.
Don't ask me why.
Its just something you have to know.
:)

My family is my everything.
I'm sure of that.
 I know I can live without anything but my family.
I can lose everything.
But I have to know that they're there.
I know its sounds selfish 
But for me,
My opinion counts.


This is gonna be a short post.
Since its going to be 2am soon.

I may seem weak and out of place.
But I know how to take care of myself
And I do know where I'm supposed to be.
ILY.
And I'm gonna live my life,
MY WAY.



I become such a kid when I'm with you.
Gonna miss you like buck.
Sigh, 
You'll always have a special place in my heart.
Thank you.

Alhamdulilah.

Love.

Wednesday, March 9

Three Weeks.

As I've posted before
MY TRAILS IS IN
THREE WEEKS!!!
Do you know how stressful that is?!!!
I bet you do.
So,
You should know what kind of deep shit that I'm in.
Alevel is soo not easy!
But,
Oh well,
Thats life.
:)


But,
Currently I'm having my monthly
Dose of downloading craze.
And one artist caught my eye.
AVRIL LAVIGNE.

Yes,
One of my personal 
All time favorite.
What?
I'm gonna love what I love.
But yeah,
Her new album is not bad at all.
My kind of songs
A bit pop-ish.


You know what?
I have an idea for a new 
Kind of a blog.
How bout just me and my videos.
Or photos.
(Sorry to the people with slow internet)
Depends on what mood I'm in.
I guess it just depends on meee.
And all the people who actually read my blog.
A BIG FAT 
THANK YOU!
I know my blog isn't interesting at all.
I mean 
Come on la.
I'm not creative at all.
Well, maybe a bit la.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
I'm such a weird kid.



The video above is one of my favorite band.
THE ARTIC MONKEYS
Of course.
I love the style of music that they have.
To really think about it
I'm really am a flexible person.
I like almost any kind of music.
( I'm not prone to screamos)
But yeah,
I can listen and like almost
Any kind of music.
One of my specialities.
I guess so la.


Yeah,
More videos.
I just love videos
And
YOUTUBE.
Hahahahahahahaha.
I can find all the music videos that I want.

I'm sorry.
I gotta be selfish.
I want to know who would, 
Catch me when I fall,
Cry with me,
Assemble my heart back together when its broken,
Take me for who I am,
See the good in me,
When the world is against me,
I can trust on when I'm in doubt,
I'll be there through it all,
I'll stand by you forever,
You can count on me in hardship,
Heartbreaks,
Anything.
I'll still be there.
But its time for me to search,
For my own.


Sorry for that long poem,
Semi-poem.
Whatever!
Hahahahaha.
But I'm enjoying life
Even though trails is in three weeks.
Yes, I had that drilled into my head.
But yeah,
I'm nineteen.
Live, Laugh, Love 
KAN?


Love. 



Monday, March 7




Because sometimes,
I'm not strong enough.
You know I need you.


Friday, March 4

Mujhse Dosti Karoge?


Lets just say that I love the bollywood industry.
Love the over acting movies.
I watched it a lot when I was younger.
:)

I watched one of the bollywood movie
recently.
So, I was Inspired to post something about it.
Well,
What can I say,
I have Indian blood.
So, no racial at all.

I know that it's been a LONG time since I've post
Something up in my blog.
Lets just say
That I have a lot to update
You know,
I have all those Twitter, Facebook, Tumblr
Stuff...
Hahahahahha..
Yeah, totally normal.
What?
I'm a girl....
I've been busy this few weeks.
Like buck, I have a million things to do.
In a very restraining time frame.
:)


"BODO."
My favorite word nowadays.
It means stupid.
I got it from a close friend of mine.
Love that dude.
I'm gonna miss him like buck when he leaves.
But its okay, if we meant to be close friends.
Then its going to happen.
Okay,
I'm not in love with this dude.
Seriously.
Hahahahaha.
I love him to death but not in the romantic way.
He's my best friend.
And he is not gay.
Thats it.
Owh,
NO RACIAL
But,
He's my Indian.

All those secrets you told me,
I'll keep it with me,
Till I die,
And I know you,
And I'm not worried,
I know that your sometimes feeling-less,
But I know when you love something,
You love it for good.
Thank you.


Sooooooooo,
Yanywho,
I'm busy with my A-level trails!
Which is in three weeks!!!
Damn you, Time.
I love you
But sometimes you go too fast for me.

And I'm in love with a singer.
Like, I love her music!
Its just my style. 
:)
Thanks to a certain someone who
Introduces me to her.
Kina Grannis.
I just adore her music.


Don't be fooled by the outside.


As I lay here on the bed,
My heart speaks,
I let it beat,
Its beat,
You feel the love it leaks,
And I can't describe just how much of it is for you
And what you do,
All this time,
I was broken,
Trying to find a love unspoken.


I also loving photos.
Just photos.
Let me show you some.








I am such a colorful person!
I just love lots of colour!!!
I mean,
Come on!
Who doesn't?!

I've also notice that
I love vintage stuff.
And I know
What I'll be wearing if 
I didn't wear Baju Kurung 24/7.
And I'm keeping my ground that 
I LOVE Baju Kurung!!!
One of the most comfy-est
Thing other then my blanket!
(which I left it back in Melaka)
Damn, I miss my blanket.
I want it!
But I have my comforter.
Which is comfy-er.
Then my lovely blanket!
But,
I still love my blanket!
:P
Hahahahahaha.


I wish we were in a different lifetime.


Love.