For Somebody.

I know these days I've been talking about someone 

A lot.

If you don't want to read it then just click exit.

Its that easy.

Just know that person matters.

A lot.

But a lot of people matters to me.

:)

Do you remember?

Love.

Here Is Where I Start.

A new chapter begins.

I thought it will always start with you and me.

Differ now.

Its okay and I accept the fact that I'm wrong.

Today is a different day.

I want it to be a day I won't think of the things that happened.

Live your life as you want.

And I'm doing the same.

I've stop hoping for anything now.

Today wasn't bad.

I guess I am really an indoor person.

I shall work out more then.

So I can lose more weight.

I love who I am now.

Seriously, I love what I am and where I am.

But I understand that I'm overweight.

And its not good for my body and myself.

Seriously,

You get tired faster.

You have pimple easier.

You get organs problem faster.

And all of that stuff.

Seriously, I do need to lose weight.

MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

And then I'll be satisfied.

:)

LOVE.

For Only We Know.

Yes. Everything changed.

Yes. It would never be the same again.

Yes. Somethings only we have the perfect understanding.

Yes. I know what you want and I totally agree.

Now, don't think that now I understand and agree

It doesn't mean that I've changed.

I will never change.

This is the way I am.

I'm sorry

Even though I know how much I mean to you.

Now, you have to give that to someone else.

Someone worth more then I do.

I realize all that I've done

And I'll learn from it.

You just have to find someone

That could mean as much or more then I do.

Don't worry.

There's tons of people out there.

And I do know a lot that want to be someone

You trust with all your heart.

Someday I'll be someone

You've still trust with all your heart

But I'm never going to be 

Where I was with you.

As much as we don't want this to happen.

It has happened.

And no one can turn back time.

And I don't want anything like this to ever happen to you

Ever again.

I've done enough damage.

And your recovering.

Thank god with the right people.

I do feel jealous and I've lost a part of my normal life.

But its all a way of life.

You lost something,

To get something.

You throw away somethings,

To make ways for new ones.

Works for the both of us.

I didn't know I was hurting you that much.

With the gentleness of your touch,

Leave for the better future that you have,

Leave for the nights that you've let go,

Leave for the good in you,

Leave for the steps you took,

With your elegance,

Walk like you've never walk before,

High chin and high dreams,

Continuation that have been alter,

Don't be scared,

Don't freak out,

See what other see in you,

And you'll be all good,

You'll know how much you worth,

And You'll see the world in a different perspective.

You'll see.

ILY and IMY.

Love.

When The Story Reached Its Climax, When The Story Is Ending.

Its not  the destination,

Its how we get there,

From the start,

You were right,

From the day it happened,

I never regret anything,

But now, 

All I could say and do,

Is to say,

I'm sorry.

No one really know.

The curtain fall,

The story end.

Love.

Most Of Everything Is Perfect.

This song by Katy Perry suddenly

Make sense.

In a way la.

:)

How do I get closer to you,

When you keep it all on mute,

How will I know, 

The right way to love you,

Usually the queen of figurin out,

Breaking down a man is no work out,

But I have no clue,

How to get through to you,

I wanna hit you just to see if you cry,

I keep knockin' on wood,

Hopin there's a real boy inside,

But you're not a man,

You're just a mannequin

I wish you could feel,

That my love is real,

but you're not a man,

I wish I could just turn you on,

Put a battery in and make you talk,

even pull a string for you to say anything,

But with you there is no guarantee,

Only expired warranty,

A bunch of broken parts,

I can't seem to find your heart,

I'm such a fool,

I'm such a fool,

I'm such a fool,

This one's outta my hands,

I can't put you back together again,

Cause you're a man

You're just a manneguin,

I wish you could feel,

That my kove is real,

But you're not a man,

You're just a toy,

Could you everv be a real, real boy,

And understand,

But you're not a man,

If past is the problem,

Our future can solve them,

Baby,

I could bring you life,

If you let me inside baby,

This will hurt but in the end,

You'll be a man,

Cause you're not a man,

You're just a mannequin,

I wish you could feel,

That my love is real,

You're just a toy,

Could you ever be real, real boy,

And understand,

But you're not a man.

To me this song has two meanings.

How do I understand if you don't tell me. Anything.

I'm getting over you. Maybe.

Love.

For The One Who Know Me For Who I Am.

I feel lonely right now,

I know your just meters away,

But somehow you won't answer my texts,

I know you would now.

Time always catches up on us,

So does memories,

Events that happened,

That we love for it to disappear,

And hate to remember.

Life has its downs, bad happenings,

But life is full of happy lovely, worth while happenings,

That becomes good memories,

To share with our kids.

You are who you are,

I am what I am,

Everytime I remember that phrase,

I'll remember you.

Ok, we call it a truce,

We'll make peace with it,

But we can't keep on hurting each other,

Not like this,

You can yell, scream, hit, stab or even kill me,

If you want to,

I much rather you do that,

Honesty is the word of the day,

Because I don't know if I'm going to be here tomorrow,

Leaving is my last resort,

A decision that I will never want to make,

I will never leave you,

Even if you want me to,

Because if I leave,

I leave,

And I can never do that to you,

Because no matter what you do,

I still and will always care for you.

You and me,

We are different,

In all our friends,

We're the most unique,

You know that.

Our relationship can never be duplicate, 

I don't know about you,

But to me,

You're the most closes to my number one.

Love.

Everytime I thought things would end.

You prove me wrong.

I know I shouldn't have even thought about it

But what can I do?

I'm only human.

I doubt,

I get scared,

I love,

I hate,

I feel invincible,

I feel lost.

Well I guess I'm one of the most easy, complicated human

had ever walked the earth.

I'm sorry and I'll make it right again.

Just give me some time and you'll see.

Please believe in me.

Word Of The Decade.

Patience.

Like seriously.

Now days people is seriously jumping in to conclusion in seconds.

Don't.

We the millenium people always want it fast.

Fast relationship.

Fast marriage.

Fast sex.

Fast text.

Fast information.

We now don't appreciate the fact that we do have time.

I guess that why people get bored easily.

They do things soo fast that they would be bored faster.

Like kids nowadays have cellphones at 10 years old.

LIKE SERIOUSLY WHY?
Why does a 10 year old needs a cellphone?

Who is he going to call?

IM?
WHY?

We when we're 10 we had our house phone.

We don't even call our friends that much.

Usually to call to check about tomorrow classes and stuff.

Now they have 'Boyfriend's at the age of 8.

And if the boy doesn't call 

He's cheating on her.

WHAT?

WHY? WHY? WHY?

Now I understand why our parents search for love at such an old age.

Or at a really young age.

My mom got married at 27.

And only after 11month meeting my dad.

THEY LASTED FOR 21 YEARS!

And still counting.

I guess they get the fact that you can't do it at a fast pace find to that guy/girl.

Come on.

At 18, you already had about 100 BF's.

What is that?

How can you date 100 people?

I know, Why not?

But how do you know out of the 100 people.

You can get a better one next time?

How do you know you haven't missed that person?

The one that finishes your sentences?

Hahahaha.

I know we should explore the world 

But why do we have to get in a relationship?

We could enjoy the world just fine with the people WE love.

And

Why do we need to classifies people in who their partner is?

Have she or he actually have ever been into a relationship?

Why not?

We cannot! CANNOT!

Actually believe that we have to have a partner to have a normal life.

A healthy life?

No.

We just have to be who we are.

Who we want to be.

Who we choose to be.

BUT don't give up too fast.

Try not to.

Love is always there.

Its just a matter of time.

I know sometimes it would be tiring

Of waiting and searching

But when you find it 

It will be worth everything that had happened in your life.

Because at the end of it all 

We want someone that love us for who we are,

Who we have become,

Who we're going to be,

And who we would never going to be.

I'm guilty as charge.

Love.

For the people I truly care about.

And for me.

How Are You?

HELLO!

I know its been a long time since I post anything.

I don't know why but alot have changed since.

I know whats happening.

And I accept the fact that I'm wrong.

I don't mind.

Why should I?

And I'm sorry.

For everything.

Don't forgive me this time.

I'm going to smile,

And make you think that I'm happy,

I'm going to laugh,

So you don't see me cry,

I'm going to let you go in style,

And even when it kills me-

I'm going to smile.

Made a wrong turn, once or twice
Dug my way out, blood and fire
Bad decisions, that's alright
Welcome to my silly life
Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood
Miss 'No way, it's all good', it didn't slow me down
Mistaken, always second guessing, underestimated
Look, I'm still around.

Pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less than f*ckin' perfect
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel like you're nothing
You're f*ckin' perfect to me! 

Love.

OWH.

Beautiful People.

I can never be much more happier then to know I have 

Beautiful people around me.

This post is especially for them.

To express my feelings for them.

Hopefully I can remember all of them la.

:)

First of all is my mother.

Mommy, I love you no matter what. Nothing can stop me from being your daughter.

Thank you for all the things that you've done for me. I'm forever in debt with you.

I'm sorry if I'd ever hurt you.

2nd, Dad.

I love you daddy. Your the best dad I can ever have. No matter where I go.

I will always remember you. A lot of things that you know about me.

I'm forever grateful to you.

3rd, My Elder sister.

Thank you for being there no matter what. Thank you for being soo understanding.

I'm sorry if I ever hurt you. And your the best sister I'll ever get. Don't be down

I know your a strong person.

To my dearest Best Friend.

Off all the things that we've been through and even though some of them aren't good.

I just want you to know that no matter what, you are worth it.

Don't care about what anyone says darling. Live your life.

And know that I still and will care no matter what it is.

And I know your the best person I'l ever met in my whole life.

Thank you for teaching me numerous things.

To my dearest friend,

Eventhough I only have known you for a few month and you've become someone

I can count on and don't hesitate to look for me for help.

No matter where you go, I'll miss you.

To my good friend,

You are the first person I get to know on my own in college.

I love you for being soo straight forward and trustworthy.

I know you'll do all you can to help me.

Thank you.

To my friends that I know I have,

Thank you, Thank you and Thank you.

Every each one of you have effect me to be who I am today

I'm forever thankful of being apart of your life.

Love.

THIS IS NOT AN EMO POST! I JUST FEEL LIKE DOING IT!

Only They Know.

But they told me

A man should be faithful

And walk when not able

And fight till the end

But I'm only human.

Life Like This.

As much as I love Facebook.

I'm falling in love with Twitter. 

Seriously.

I think now everyone should have it.

I think its easier.

Facebook is not going to be banned or shut down.

Phewww...

I know right!

Muahahaha..

And,

I want TweetDeck!

Like buck! 

Its seriously easier.

Yes, I guess I'm a Twitter-addict.

Who cares..

But yeah, I got it and I'm trying it out.

Its annoying at first la.

But I guess I'll just get use to it.

Owh!

And alot of things happened!

That I can't write down since this blog is public.

But I'm content of just mentioning it.

This past weekend was weird

funney, sad and helpfull.

:)

Only the people who know,

knows.

LOL. 

Yeah, I can't tell.

Eventhough I'm involved

but some of it is secrets 

that is not mine to tell.

I understand completely now.

Sorry for asking too much

and to tell too much.

I'm really sorry.

I guess I still haven't change.

I hate myself for that.

How many times shall I be taking chances?

I must learn how to stop.

But the first day of classes for this week 

have been decent.

I guess nothing freaky happened today.

And I'm quite happy on how today is going.

I guess its going to be a good day.

When you know that its true.

Don't hide yourself from it.

Put your mind into it, 

And just live your life,

The best that you can make it.

Love.

Early, Too Early.

How would I be if not of how I am.

Its Friday and tomorrow 

Is my college 

PARENTS TEACHER DAY!

And my mom is ecstatic!

And my dad is coming too.

Yeah...

I know I'm getting myself to deep shit.

:)

I make mistakes.

AND! I FOUND MY TRUE LOVE!

I can help myself from loving this car.

The Bentley Continental GT in noir matte.

Buck I love it!

As I said earlier that my parents are coming.
Its saturday today.
 I saved this post.

They did and I had a great

hour with them.

Like really great!

I was totally suprised!

I love them to bits!

They are the best parents that I could ever have.

Thank you mom. Thank you dada.

I love you and your awesomeness.

You came and changed my world,

And you don't know it.

I had a good time with L, T and N.

MUAHAHAHAHA!

 I hope the plan of starting the youtube thingie would happen.

AND!

S the Fabulous Indian Billy Goat is in the hospital.

Wish him GET WELL SOON!
You seriously worry me.

Thank god I see you today.

Or I'll be worrying for the rest of the week.
:P

Buck you people. You make me love you guys more now.

But its not entirely your fault

 I just can't help myself.

:)

Love.

Behind That Eyes.

MUAHAAHAHAHA!

I know, I'm random.

:D

For some weird reason I have a feeling that

the amount of people reading my blog

isn't how I think it is.

I have a feeling ALOT of people read my blog.

Weird but OKAY!

We'll have fun.

I don't know why (again) but

I just adore today.

I guess some people will know why but

notice I didn't spend much time to be around it.

Everytime I'm around it wouldn't be there.

Or like going away.

I guess its scared of me.

Fine, I'll be less stalker-ish.

:)

I guess I just have to forget about it,

Because no matter what I do,

You'll never realise,

That its you.

:P

Currently in love with Secret and Whisper.

A band.

Yeah, A wanted me to listen to it

two days ago and after that I got hooked on to it.

I hope tomorrow will be better then today.

Hoping for the light ahead,

Without falling for the dark.

Love.

Song of the day- Silver Mountain by Secret and Whisper.

So when you'll see,

You meant everything to me,

For all the time that we spent,

To search for love and start again,

Everything will change and the you'll know,

How sometimes love is like changing clothes.

More Then Meets The Eyes.

You've been a hero to others.

A model of greatness.

The leader of an entity.

You are great just the way you are.

All the things that are already infront of you.

Cherish and love them as well as you can.

Shit happens in life.

But know that life is temporary.

Everything doesn't last forever.

You may gain to lose something.

And you may lose to win something.

Its all in the journey of life.

And don't take things that are worth it for granted.

Because one day you'll left it somewhere and

you'll lose it.

Stay as close to them as possible.

But knows there's always Free-will in a person.

They choose what they want to do.

And sometimes, their decision sucks.

Their decision hurts.

Their decision is life changing.

Their decision is what you always wanted.

People doesn't do general.

In people there's persons.

Persons that have they're own minds,

Toughts and hearts.

They are as original as we are.

Don't worry Best Friend,

You'll be just fine.

You'l be what you've always wanted to be.

Living life as you like it.

Full control of what you do.

Clear of what you want.

And that perfect girl will show up.

Trust me.

Gosh!

Its been a while since I've updated my blog!

I know you miss me.

XOXO.

Well, I just started my classes a day ago.

Dropped Literature.

I can't take 4 subjects.

Sometimes I have to know my limits.

:)

And because of the contract thingie I had with my college.

Whateva.

Classes have been good to me.

I guess.

I know most of my Lecturer isn't really fond of me.

:P

I told you I'm a bad student.

BUT, I'll try my hardest this Sem2!

I know I have a lot to bulk-up.

This starting of the year is bumpy one.

I know its like just 11 days?

But shit happens in life.

You can't choose to stop it.

Its either take it or leave t.

Muahahahahhahahahahahahaha.

I know I deserve to be happy as much as anyone else is.

Don't tell me I don't.

Love.

On The Outside.

Heylo people! Person who's reading!

(This blog is like a personal diary. Love it!)

As you people who read my blog know, I'm back in Subang.

Yeah, I have been just going around Subang.

Doing stuff I won't be doing when classes starts.

Well, things that I won't be doing as much laa.

When classes starts I'm going to be such a geek.

Like seriously, one of the only things

my brain would be occupied is about study.

How to study?

When to study?

And all that.

I'm going to turn myself to a nerd. Basically.

When your not around,

I feel like my day is not complete,

When I finally get to see you,

I'll be content.

I have been unpacking these past few days.

Unpacking means unpack, clean and keeping stuff.

I know I take soo long to unpack but hey, thats how I do it.

OWH!
I heard Facebook is going to be banned in Malaysia!

Buck!

I need my dose of Facebook!

Gosh!

Its like one of the only ways for me to contact my friends.

Well, there's twitter and Skype and cellphones.

But but but.....

Facebook is just awesome!

GOSH!

Its not comfirm yet but I really really hope

They won't do it!

Like seriously!

I don't want to go back to Myspace!

And when I'm done,

Looking at all the things I've accomplished,

I realise all I needed was you,

Eventhough I didn't see only you,

Put me into your priorities,

Into your lists of friends,

Just know that I've insert you in mine too.

Love.

In The Dark.

How lovely,I'm back in Subang.

I want to be in Subang.

But I always forget to bring back my heart.

I know its like'Come on la. By now you should get

used to it already'

But I left a big part of my heart everytime I leave that

house to come back here.

That place is always will be the most important place

in my life.

Melaka.

Its one of the places that for me I don't understand

why would god give it to me.

I'm not worth what I get.

I don't know why you love me,

And thats why I love you,

You catch me when I fall,

Accept me flaws and all,

And thats why I love you,

And thats why I love you,

And thats why I LOVE YOU.

This year will be a hectic year.

I wouldn't really blog that much but I'll update as much as I can.

Hahahaha..

I don't even know if ANYONE read my blog

but its alright, its MY blog.

I would have to give my 300% for this year.

I gotta do my best for myself.

Only the people I'm close with knows.

Or the people I choose to tell.

Knows what had happened.

That almost break my dreams of finishing

A-level.

Muahahahaha.

Anyways, I'm back in Subang

to continue my studies.

And as I know its getting very late.

and I have to wake up at 6am today.

To solat Subuh.

I was unpacking from just now but I'm not done yet.

Gosh, how much stuff did I brought back?

Not that much......

I guess its been a while

that I haven't unpack this much stuff.

Whateva.

Love.

Realistic.

I will be realistic but you gotta help me.

I know you won't like it but

I want to do this.

This is my fight.

My war with myself.

To test on how far I can go.

I've given too much on it to give up now.

I won't do it.

I can't.

I want to at least finish this.

4 subject or 3 subject.

I can do this.

I know I can.

Trust me.

Love.

I know what is your intention.

But this is my life and

I'm going to choose.

For MY future.

I don't want to give up now. Not now.

I know parents knows best but its going to be the same in any other college.

Its either I've done it now or later.

And I rather have do it now.

Only You.

Yes, FINALLY its been clarified.

I know someone's going to have a good night sleep tonight.

:P

I'm soo happy for her.

Actually for two person.

Muahahahahahaha.

I'm happy that good things happens around me.

I'm content that it happened and are happening.

:)

My eyes are red from all the sneezing and coughing.

YES PEOPLE! I'M SICK.

*and sleepy*

Owh, I finally realise I'm not that hygienic but not as bad as

BOYS.

lol.

And I now loves sweet smelling stuff like seriously.

I just want to smell like flowers and fruits all day!

The stuff from Victoria's Secret helps!

But I just want one more thing from there.

The freaking body mist!

Wild Pear

Sooo going to ask L to buy it for me when she goes to

Singapore again.

Cause when I'm with him I'm thinking of you

(Thinking of you, Thinking of you)

Thinking of you, what you would do

If you were the one who was spending the night

(Spending the night, Spending the night)

Oh, I wish that I was looking into your eyes, your eyes

Looking into your eyes, Looking into your eyes

Oh, Won't you walk through?

And bust the door and take me away?

Oh no more mistakes

Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay, Stay

Anywho, Yes. SOME people had good news.

Muahahahaha.

Told you so.

But now you seriously have to listen to me and S.

No more mistakes.

I mean, No more missing chances.

Seriously! TAKE THEM ALL!

ANY chances!

Don't be scared!

Love.

When Reality Takes Over.

I wish you couldn't figure me out

But you'd always want to know what I was about

I wish you'd hold my hand

When I'm upset

I wish you never forget

The look on my face when we first met

2011 (Hopefully) With Love.

WOW! Its freaking 2011 already!

Buck!

BUAHAHAHAHAH!

2010 was EPIC.

Hoping it would stay but time goes on.

It can't wait for anyone.

Because that would be too annoying.

I hope 2011 would be more successful and smooth.

2010 was too fast and furious.

Like an F1 in a highway.

Too fast for the road.

Not to say I regret anything.

But today was a relasp and a total reminder of what had

happened in 2010.

Memories that just keep on coming back.

:)

Ah, 2010.

You are the most memorable year of my life.

Brought me love, hate, happiness, pain, ups and falls.

Hahahaha.

2010.

Nothing I wouldn't do to go through it again.

But, life goes on.

All the things that happened are now memories.

So, I hope that all of the people I love

Didn't do something that they regret.

I hope so.

Love you people!

And Your theme song is

What's my name by Rihanna ft drake

It makes me think of you everytime it plays.

:)

New year means a new start.

SO, EVERYONE!

Leave all the bad things behind you.

Trust me.

Its better that way.

And take all the good things in you heart.

and cherish it.

Love.