For The Second Time.

Yes! I've decided to blog the second time today.

(Actually I did but stupid Blogspot.)

BECAUSE!

Just because I can't blog tomorrow

and the next day too.

Because......

I'll be in SINGAPORE!

MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

I know, like almost everyone been to Singapore and stuff.

But its not where I'm heading (yeah it is but also)

Its who I'm going with.

I'm going with Ma FAMALIA!

Of course.

OWH! OWH! OWH!

We're going to Universal Studious Singapore too!

WOOHOO!

'FUN'

(I get excited over things easily.) :P

But I'mma be hella tired when I get back.

When WE all come back.

COME ON LA! Its like only for one night.

All the places to go and soo little time!

L wants to shop. So is my cuzs.

I'm just going to follow them around.

Like normal. :)

But what the heck!

Just gonna enjoy all the time we'll have there!

And maybe we'll be going to visit some of my cousins there.

LOL!

YES! I have familia in Singapore!

Haven't seen them in a while though.

Just this morning one of them FB Messaged me.

Saying that I've turned to be real pretty since I was younger.

Hehehehe.

She said I was messy before.

I guess I was. :)

Its the way you do

The things you do

That make me fall in love with you.

Love.

Breaking Free.

Yesh, finally tomorrow!

I can't wait to go but I know that place will remind me about someone.

I don't know how I'm going to go through tomorrow

but probably I would because I have MOST of the people I adore and love with me.

How I wish I was different.

Maybe a bit lighter?

Prettier?

My skin tone is lighter?

Taller?

Sigh. I don't know. Because of this one person.

I do know that being me is enough.

But is being enough, enough?

Make me feel like being me isn't good enough.

But I'm greatful of what I am.

What I have.

Who I love.

Who that loves me.

Why sometimes I do have self-confident is because I had to learn it the hard way to love myself.

Pathetic, I know.

Buck my insecurities!

BUT, TOMORROW!
Would be a good day! Hopefully. :D

Yes, It will.

Owh, I admit I'm naive but it doesn't really mean I don't know.

I just realise I have two pairs of cat twins! LOL.

I know, It made me miss H & L and The Double F's.

(College-mates)

And THAT made me miss COLLEGE!

WITH THAT it made miss all the friends in college!

I MISS M, H, L, T, The Indian, Indian Billy Goat, Bakul and BUCKET!

Buck I miss college. Can't wait to see them again.

Love.

Feelings That Does Not Match.

I wonder how many people actually follow my blog. Seriously.

How bout inbox me on my FB? But I don't think anyone actually read my blog.

Except for L. Maybe. I don't know.

I mean come on. Who wants to read RANDOM, stupid stuff about me.

=)

But I don't care. I'm going to write on it anyways. Muahahaha.

Buck my FB jammed. Buck you FB.

Different kind of writing todayyy.

Wanted to try new stuff.

I actually like this kind of writing...

Starting from the middle.

Seriously, Stupid FB! I'm freaking chatting with L.

Why do you need to jammed yourself! Like seriously! Having serious convo here?!

Owh, in serious need of exercise. LOL.

MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Seriously, I feel like I need to do something random. Like Serious random!

OWH! I LOVE TOKIO HOTEL! WOOOHOOO!

In LOVE with this song. Figure it out yourself what song is it cause I'm gonna change it abit. :P

Btw, this is for someone who one day will know. But not anytime soon.

You know its not my fault, but you're a locked door

And inside you're a mess by someone before
And you wish that you, you could find a key
To unlock all the things that I want us to be
Let you open up and start again,
But there’s a safe around your heart
You don’t know how to let me in,
And that’s what keeps us apart
And that’s why you need time.
You said You need me,
You need me to understand, me, me, me,
You need me to understand, me, me, me,

Call up the locksmith,
Tell him we need him quick
We’ve got a million keys,?
None of them seem to fit
While I'm on the phone,
Call up the clocksmith,
Cuz you could use some time,
Even the slightest bit

Let you open up and start again,
And break this safe around your heart
You don’t know how to let me in,

That’s what keeps us apart
And that’s why I need time
You said you need me,

You need me to understand, me, me, me,
You need me to understand, me, me, me,

You're thinking now’s the time,
Maybe its time to go, if You gave me your heart, I'll be gentle,
You're tired of laying low, lets give the world a show
And when I know, I know,
And when I know, I know, I know
And when I know, I know, I know, I know,
And that’s why you need time

You said you need me,
You need me to understand,me,me,me, (x2)
You need me to understand (x4)
I need you (x3)
I need you, you, you

Love.

To My Future Boyfriend. Hahahaah.

I hope you will not Steal, Lie and Cheat.

BUT,

If you have to Steal,

Steal my sorrows away,

But if you have to Lie,

Lie with me for the rest of my life,

And if you have to Cheat,

Cheat death because I can't spend even one day without you.

Cheesy much? LOL. I watched Leap Year. Well, parts of it. Since my lil sis keep on skipping scenes because its her second time watching.

Went out earlier today. With Lil H and L.

K, A,D and loser went out first because D drove.

They went kareoke-ing.

Me, L and Lil H just walking and window shopping through the malls.

And Owh! I almost forget that I BOUGHT NEW SHOES! LOL! From Everlast. Quite cheap. L was saying that I should buy converse but I always wanted to buy Everlast shoes. Wanted to try them out. Its actually quite painful for the first few hours waering them. Their not like my Adidas shoes that was soo freaking comfy whenever you put them on. But their way cuter then my last Adidas ones.

Anywho, we went to Jonker walk after that.

Finding some stuff to buy for some people. =P

It wasn't fun but it was good. Damn it was hot. People walking like their blind. Like seriously, If you want to survive Jonker Walk, Walk like you're blind. Just walk straight and bump into people! =D Its fun.... Yeah... No. Its not fun.

OWH, btw, I'm really a goody-goody girl. I know, RANDOM!

Love.

Red And Green.

It has been a hell of a day. If I was a christian, I would say this is a perfect Christmas. Don't worry my dearest family. I never wished nor I've image to be one. No offence to Christians of course. All the things I think I need is here, IN Melaka. This next few days will be filled with lots of quality time with la familia. The set is complete. So, lots more fun!

Singapore in 3 days! Can't wait for that! Spending and enjoying as much as I can before going back to Subang! Sigh.

I love the people that I know in Subang.

I mean, I seriously adore and love them!

But Subang means A-level. And that means study. And study means aiming for A's. A's means hardwork. Hardwork means discipline.

And I dislike being discipline. But I know I have to. :D

For the better future. I know I'll be missing alot of things but all the things I'm going to go through if I do it properly, Is amazing. I know we should enjoy life. I am and I'll always be but there's always limits for everything.

And

So, Who are YOU waiting for?

THE GIRL OF YOUR DREAMS?

Love.

Christmas Morning.

Merry Christmas!!

Santa, can I ask for a person? Is that possible? LOL. To the people I love, have a good holidays and try to enjoy life as it is because you'll never know if you getting another chance to go through this next year. I wanted alot of things. I wish for alot of things. I don't get them. I'll still live. Its never about getting. Its all about giving. How much would you give? And how long can you stand with only giving and not getting? All you have to do is to be patient and be grateful of what you have.

Love.

Reminder.

When I'm older and if my little boy asks me who my first love was. I don't want to have to pull out The Old Photo Album. I want to be able to point across the room and say : "He's sitting right over there."

Holiday Without Love.

Yes, a one month holiday has officially is in my Unwanted list. Hehehe. This holiday has made me realise again of how much I LOVE the people I hang around with in Subang. Actually the people I generally with. I miss them. Why do they have to live soo far away? But I do appreciate the time I spend with my FAMILIA! I seriously love and adore them! I'm actually still in the progress of understanding why I'm such a weird kid. HAHAHAHAHA! Its been a long time since I hang around with my family and I guess thats the whole point I'm here in Melaka and this one month holiday eh?

I'm loving the time and space I have now but if I can't share it with the people I want to share it with then I don't want all this time and space and thank god I do have people to share it with today.

And again, missing you.

Love.

Jolly, Its been a good seven days of holiday and I'm dying. Seriously, I'm growing fatter. Hahahaha. I blame my mom! Tomorrow I'm going to start a new diet plan. I know. It would only happen if I focus! So A, FOCUS! F.O.C.U.S! For everything you want in the future! FOCUS!

And

If you like me,

Tell me,

If you miss me,

Show it,

If you love me,

Prove it.

Song of the day- Monte by Zee Avi

Love.

Wow, Its only been about five days since holiday started and I'm already wanting to go back to Subang Jaya for college. Seriously, it feel like forever for this holiday to end and I know that I'll miss this holidays when it end. I miss all the people I used to see almost everyday. Buck! I miss them! Its okay. Next year will be a good year! Start anew and stuff. LOL.

Btw,

I going to quote from a song now. :P

Once again you're home alone,

Tears running from your eyes,

And I'm on the outside,

Knowing that you're all I want,

But I can't do anything,

I'm so helpless baby,

Everyday same old things,

So used to feeling pain,

Never had real love before,

And it ain't his fault,

He know better but

He can't help it,

Wanna tell him,

but would that be selfish,

How do you heal

A heart that can't feel, Its broken,

Her love is all he know, all he knows, all he knows,

His love is all I knows, all I knows, all I knows.

Love.

You know all my secrets,

You see through everything I've done,

You can't do anything to make me stop loving and trust you,

I know thats stupid but I rather be stupid with you.

I rather bleed my heart out then lose you.

I know I'm probably one of the most naive people but I rather be naive then lose someone I know I'm going to meet only once in my life.

Yes, as much as the reason to live for.

You're one of the source of mine.

The reasons I wake up in the mornings.

You showed me alot of things I didn't know.

Good or bad, I learned from each and everyone.

So, let your guard down and tell me.

I know there's something your not telling me.

Something that have been disturbing you.

I truly want to know.

And no matter what it is I will never judge you.

I promise.

Love you.

Buck My Life.

Don't want to feel the way I feel about you.

Everything about you make my whole body shiver,

It's you I want in my world , it's you that I adore.

Love.

See What I've Done.

You can't be too careful anymore

When all that is waiting for you,

Won't come any closer,

You've got to reach out a little more,

More, More, More, MORE.

Love.

Loving You.

More and more you sinking into me. Sorry because I'm not brave enough. :P

See this heart won't settle down

Like a child running scared from a clown
I'm terrified of what you do
My stomach screams just when I look at you
Run far away so I can breath
Even though your far from suffocating me
I can't set my hopes to high
Cause every hello ends with a goodbye.

Catch Me by Demi Lovato.

Love.

How I Feel About You.

Its sad to know that your there but I can't reach you. You never fail to make my day. And to my lucky Best Bud, sometimes we can't control life. Live your life to the fullest. Don't regret anything because time does not wait and never we'll be able to control it. Don't give up so easily because life is still going and we are better off here. This is just something that you'll have to go through. Its tough but its probably worth every second.

To L, Thank you for evrything. Each day that we've spend is amazing. Such an amazing friend, best friend and sister.

Song Of The day- Catch me by Demi Lovato.

Love.

Hello Luck

I just need luck. I do. I know I'm not careful enough. With anything. How sad of me.

But I'm happy. I'm content with the life I have now.

I'm a simple person. And I want to keep it that way. I know almost everything in this world is complicated but I can't help myself. I'll make it simple! LOL.

AND

Btw, AUDI is the new shit.Right L? ;P

This Is What It Takes.

Next week is Freaking Sem 1 Exam!

Imma die. Seriously, I'm going to die. LOL. Nah, I have the help from L, M and H. Been studying in Lakeside alot these days. Well, more then that la. :D. Okay, this blog is officially too public. I can't write shit anymore. I thought it would be a blog that just my close friends read. If they know la. But nah, I'm not that type. Maybe? He is just not normal. And no, I don't like him that much. Loving the time I spend with my girlfriends. I now know why they're my peeps. LOL. Missing the times spent with S. Miss my indian. And tomorrow is Thinking Skills exam. Greeaaatttt. Studying hard. Muahahahahahahahaha!

Btw, Me, L And H is freaking sick!!!! Next up, M!

How Much More

I Guess Ignorance Is Bliss.

I'm a puzzle, Yes indeed,

Ever complex in every way,

And all the pieces aren't even in the box,

And yet, You see the picture clear as day.

Beyonce never let me down. :D

Love.

Then

Only when you see the truth, can you understand what I meant. I've told you what you need to know. But its up to you to find out. Its your life, not mine. Its your adventure, not mine. Its your battle, not mine.

Its your story, Not mine.

I Just Don't Know Anymore.

People will hurt you but you must be strong enough to move on. The apologies that you want may never come, forgive them anyways.

Love.

This Time I Want Hope And Only Hope.

And when you feel no saving grace
Well I'm on my way
On my way
And when you're bound to second place
Well I'm on my way
On my way
So don't believe it's all in vain
Cause I'm on my way
On my way
The light at the end is worth the pain
Cause I'm on my way
On my way.

Boyce Avenue is LOVE.

Love.

For all the reasons to live for, why the hell me?

Love you. :)

About You.

There is nothing wrong to be single. Yes, I know of how many couples that is happy and still are together but its their luck. To find each other so quickly.. There is nothing to be worried about. God just wanted to give you more time to let you focus in what you supposed to do now. Let you learn how to be less impatient? Maybe he wants you to learn to control yourself before you make a decision. So, that when you found that guy, you could calmly think it through about him and you. So you could be sure about the relationship. I know for a fact that your an amazing person, intelligent, beautiful. That who ever learns to love you could love anything in this world. Yes, I take pride of loving you. I'm proud to say that I love you. For who you are and I'm sorry for being worried of the friendship and loveship that we have and still has.Thank you for yesterday. I'd never though in my whole life I could mean that much to someone like you. Never.

Just because you can't see it, It do not mean it doesn't EXIST.

One of the things that a lot of people seems to missed out now,is how to accept. Accept everything that life thrown at them. I know now that the fact that acceptance is much more valuable then understanding. Because when you accept, then you will how to understand. I don't know if its true but this is what I feel about it. When you don't accept, you won't understand. And if you don't learn to accept, you'll never learn to understand. I know to some of the things in life, we will accept it but I've seen and I know people who sometimes can't just seems to accept. Including me of course. But I'm trying my hardest to see things differently. I'm trying.

So.

This is how you feel when you miss the people you love the most?

I know I still do have people I love around me and I do really love them but its not the same. Mornings that I usually spent with the people I usually spent with is almost gone. And I miss it soo much. I wished that it would never changed but it did. Now, every morning before I wake up, there visions of the things and people I want to see when I wake up and everytime I opened my eyes, it wouldn't be there. I wish that I'll be there tomorrow because its a tradition that in the mornings we spent time with each other. Its not like going around everywhere but just having a long breakfast. And have a feast for lunch with the people we genuinely love. And just have fun with each other.

Missing all the things I used to do tomorrow. All the things that to me make my life worth living for. But if I can't do all the things I used to do tomorrow, my life ain't worth living? No, because there is going to be more of tomorrow's and I know it would be better ones.

Song of The Day- Make Up Bag by The Dream ft T.I

How?

Well, lets just say it was a fail attempt to forget about you but I truly have given up on you and I thought the next thing was to forget about the things that I love about you. But I am seriously failing at it. I know what your going through, liking someone that you know likes you back but don't want the relationship. I know it sucks. And I accept the fact that you would never even think of liking me but I'm just being such a teen and I hope. Hope that you can see me the way people who loves me see me. And I know I shouldn't but that is just way too late. This is the effect of never really believe in liking and loving a guy and suddenly, you just came into my life. I don't regret knowing you but I do regret letting myself to like you this much. I would never post this anywhere if I'm not serious enough.

I don't know how but I know I will do nothing about you. Then maybe one day I could not like you this much anymore. I hope. All I want to do now is just focus on the things that I know are much more important. That I know if I don't do it properly, I'll regret it for the rest of my life. And I rather not regret those things. It sounds selfish but that called reality. The reality that we all have to sacrifice something to gain something. We can never have it all. And if you think you have it all then that is just a lie.

We can never have it all but we can have all the things that we need.

And I hate the fact that I actually like you. :P

Song of The Day- Lalala by Auburn ft Iyaz

"Giving up doesn't always mean you're weak; Sometimes it means that you're strong enough to let go."

*Words given by a friend to encourage another. :)

Love.

Loving

If I love a song then I will make a post if its lyrics. I usually fall in love with the lyrics first then the actual song. Lyrics first, the song comes later. Depends actually.

Half Of My Heart by John Mayer ft Taylor Swift

I was born in the arms of imaginary friends
Free to roam, made a home out of everywhere I've been
Then you come crashing in, like the realest thing
Trying my best to understand all that your love can bring

Oh half of my heart's got a grip on the situation
Half of my heart takes time
Half of my heart's got a right mind to tell you
That I can't keep loving you
Oh, with half of my heart

I was made to believe i'd never love somebody else
I made a plan, stay the man who can only love himself
Lonely was the song I sang, 'til the day you came
Showing me a better way and all that my love can bring

Oh half of my heart's got a grip on the situation
Half of my heart takes time
Half of my heart's got a right mind to tell you
That I can't keep loving you
Oh, with half of my heart
With half of my heart

Your faith is strong

But I can only fall short for so long
Down the road, later on
You will hate that I never gave more to you than half of my heart
But I can't stop loving you
But I can't stop loving you
But I can't stop loving you with half of my...

Half of my heart
Half of my heart

Half of my heart's got a real good imagination
Half of my heart's got you
Half of my heart's got a right mind to tell you
That half of my heart won't do

Half of my heart is a shotgun wedding to a bride with a paper ring
And half of my heart is the part of a man who's never really loved anything

Half of my heart
Half of my heart
Half of my heart

Half of my heart

A Little Something That I Must Re-post From Another Blog.

Words Of Love?

We never get what we want,
We never want what we get,
We never have what we like,
We never like what we have.
And still, we live, and love.
Because that's life.

The best kind of friends
is the kind you can sit on a porch and swing with,
never saying a word,
and then walk away
feeling like it was the best conversation you ever had.

It's true that
we don't know what we've got until it's gone,
but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing
until it arrives.

Giving someone your love is never an assurance
that they'll love you back.
Don't expect love in return;
just wait for it to grow in their heart,
But if it doesn't, be content that it grew in yours.

It only takes a minute to have a crush on someone,
and a day to fall in love,
But it takes a lifetime to forget.

Don't go for looks; they can deceive,
Don't go for wealth; it can fade away,
Go for someone who makes you smile
Because it only takes a smile
to make a dark day seem bright.
Find the one that makes your heart smile.

May you have
Enough happiness to make you sweet,
Enough trials to make you strong,
Enough sorrow to keep you human,
And enough hope to make you happy.
The happiest of people,
don't necessarily have the best of everything,
They just make the most of everything that comes their way.

Happiness lies for
Those who cry,
Those who get hurt,
Those who have searched,
And those who have tried,
For only they
can appreciate the importance of the people who have touched their lives.

When you were born, you were crying,
And everyone around you was smiling.
Live your life so that when you die,
You're the one who is smiling
and everyone around you is crying.

Please send this message
to those people who mean something to you,
to those who have touched your life in one way or another,
to those who make you smile when you really need it,
to those who make you see the brighter side of things
when you are really down,
To those who you want to know that
you appreciate their friendship.

And if you don't, don't worry,
Nothing bad will happen to you,
You will just miss out on the opportunity
to brighten someone's day.

Song of the Day- Count On Me by Bruno Mars.

Put Your Love On It.

Never in this life I've never made mistakes. And I'm sorry for what I've done. Never will I make the same mistakes again.

I've given up because you are just too far away from me. Never been connected and I guess never will. Believe me, I've given up. Completely.

But all of you took my heart and gave me apart of yours.

Song of the Day- She Owns The Night by Far East Movement.

Something To Think About.

Something I came across while I was reading one of my favorite books. I don't know why but it made me realise alot of things that have been happening in my life and I can relate to it very much. And it also made me think about soo much more.

"I've treated Vanion so badly" she mourned "He'll never forgive me, and I love him"

"Then tell him so. That's all you really have to do, you know. Just tell him how you feel about him, say you're sorry, and everything will go back to being the way it was before."

"It won't ever be the same"

"Of course it will. As soon as you as two are back together, Vanion will forget it ever happened." He took her two small hands in his great ones, turned them over, and kissed her palms. "Thats what love's all about, little mother. We all make mistakes. The people who love us forgive the mistake. The people who won't forgive don't really matter, now, do they?"

"Well, no, but-"

"There aren't any buts, Sephrenia. It's so simple that even I can understand it. Alean and I trust our feelings, and it seems to work out fairly well. You don't really need to complicated logic when it comes to something as simple as Love."

Song of the day- Half Of My Heart by John Mayer.

Why.

Of all the billions of people in the world, why the hell did I found you?

I'm asking myself because I know I don't deserve such a thing but you already became apart of being me.

I guess I'm just way too lucky.

I Am Such An Ignorant Person.

How ignorant am I?

How could I not see something soo beautiful?

How did I missed something like this for the past 18years of my life?

I am such an ignorant person. My hometown, the place that I've grew up in and I don't even know what is the treasure it holds until today. As for what I saw today? It was magical! How could a tiny area holds soo many culture and traditions! And its been here form the day I was born and just after 18years of my life, I found it. I guess I should've known better. And thank god I did found it because if not, I know I'll never will.

Never take something that you think will always be there for granted because you'll never know when it going to be gone.

And

Live your life to the fullest.

These are what I've learnt for this past few days.

And Thank You. For being there, Love's.